Personal Updates
A personal life update about mental health, faith, financial struggles, therapy, and future goals. After being away for a couple of weeks dealing with court issues and everyday stress, I'm sharing where I've been mentally and emotionally. I discuss my hopes for this website, plans to expand beyond true crime content, my interest in technology and robotics, and my goal of posting my first YouTube and Rumble video. Through the challenges, I'm trying to stay faithful, keep learning, and move forward one day at a time while trusting that better days are still ahead.
6/1/20262 min read
Hello everyone, just a quick update about my life.
I've been pretty MIA for the past couple of weeks. Life has been a bit overwhelming lately, and I've been trying to focus on handling things one day at a time. Since last month, I've been dealing with an ongoing court situation, taking care of myself, helping watch my girlfriend's small dog, and trying to manage my mental health. Some days are easier than others. There are times when I feel exhausted, depressed, unmotivated, or overwhelmed by everything going on around me.
Despite all of that, I'm still trying to push forward. My goal with this website has never been huge numbers or overnight success. Honestly, if I could get 20 views a week and continue posting consistently, I'd be grateful. I created this site as an outlet to express myself and explore topics that interest me, and I want to keep building it one article at a time.
I also want to start branching out into other content besides dark topics and true crime. While those subjects will always interest me, there's more to life than darkness. I want to talk about technology, robotics, software, hardware, reselling phones, personal growth, faith, and whatever else I find interesting along the way.
Financially, things have been stressful. I don't know if I'll be able to afford the tuition I owe by late June, so I've been looking into free and low-cost online courses, mentorship opportunities, and ways to continue learning at my own. At the end of the day, knowledge doesn't only come from classrooms.
One thing I'm excited about is posting my very first video on YouTube and Rumble. I don't have fancy equipment, professional cameras, or a studio setup. What I do have are ideas, experiences, and things I want to talk about. Right now, I'm honestly just winging it and learning as I go. I hope that I become more comfortable speaking to a camera and expressing myself naturally.
If you're going through something difficult right now, I want you to know you're not alone. Loneliness can exist even when you have people around you. Even with my girlfriend by my side, there are days when I feel like I'm just walking through life instead of truly living it. But every morning I wake up and try again.
This week will be my first therapy appointment, and my girlfriend will be attending therapy as well. I'm nervous, but hopeful. Over the weekend, I went to church for coffee and spent some time listening to Joyce Meyer. It helped bring me a sense of peace that I hadn't felt in a while.
Life can feel draining. Sometimes it feels like the weight of everything is pressing down all at once. But I'm doing my best to keep my faith strong and trust that God is guiding me, even when I can't see the road ahead. I don't want to walk through this life without Him.
At the end of the day, it's up to me to make changes and keep moving forward. With faith in Jesus, hard work, and a willingness to keep learning, I hope better days are ahead.
God bless you all, and if everything goes according to plan, I hope to post my very first video this Thursday.
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June, 1st 2026
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